I generally try to avoid directly asking my fanbase this when I can- but the last few months have been shittier and shittier and keeping my optimism up has been significantly harder. This is why chapter 6 is taking so long. The femboi comics? Those are things my own fans paid me to draw just so I wouldn't lose my mind having to do mind numbing amounts of unrelated commissions and still get to draw my girls. Paid filler content just to keep me sane, and it makes me feel awful that my fans had to pay me to draw my own ideas, my own characters, just cause of how shit my circumstances are.

I don't think chapter 6 is on track for the end of the month like I initially predicted. Everything just feels scary and I'm constantly afraid that I'm going to keep pushing things back and back and back because I need money.

The problem is the Patreon. I currently only make close to $300 off that, and that's not nearly enough to support two people. So that leads to a saddening amount of commissions which puts me further from ever getting any comic work done. I don't want to add rewards that adds a ton of non-comic work to it, as that's completely besides the point and I'd be in the same situation as I am now. I don't really have any idea how to make the Patreon more appealing. I recently tried exclusive stuff, again, but it's like having so much exclusive content only limits the 20+ places I can post my art down to like, 3. It hurts people finding me so I really don't want to do exclusive content.

I'm just terrified that this is going to be another year where I don't have the funding to continue working on my comic as much as I want to, I mean fuck it's already one and a half months into 2020 and we haven't even started chapter 6 for fuck's sake.

I don't mean to sound entitled or anything but I just get upset thinking about how much I've done, how much harder I work than a lot of other people I know, and I'm just like why haven't I convinced more people that I'm worth supporting? And even worse is like I can't fucking make the content that will convince people to support me if I'm constantly bogged down by other shit. It feels like I'm throwing millions of tiny bottles out to sea and no one is ever finding any of them.

I don't fucking know guys. I need like, actual financial help to make MHFAP! succeed because every single attempt to monetize it has been absolutely unsuccessful. I'll tell you one thing, I'll never quit. I know if you guys could just see the millions of ideas I have in my head for this story- the action, the comedy, the romance, the sex, the twist and turns, if you guys could see inside my head for even a split second you'd all lose your shit and want to help me make all of it a possibility. But I can't show that stuff, which is why it feels pointless at times. I just want people to help me tell my story and to not have constant stress headaches and worry about shit.

If you can help me by supporting me on Patreon, please do. If you wanna support me and make like a one time donation thing, that's ok too and I'd really appreciate it right this second but would really prefer even $1 a month on Patreon since that would be a monthly thing and start to add up. There are other ways to help- reading the comic on my site, leaving comments on my site, giving my comic shout-outs and sharing it with your friends... I don't fuckin knowwwwww

Sorry for getting so vent-y but I need to do it sometime, and I've been living in a constant state of stress for like 3 fucking months so at least I've gone this far without a major, passionate cry for help lmao

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